The Unseen Side of Motherhood…

“Today I wanted so badly to move my body, to exercise, to train hard and feel the exhilaration of a tough session....

And I equally wanted to pull the duvet over my head and sleep for a week.

I felt so incredibly overwhelmed by what seems like a never ending hamster week of things to do and little people to take care of....

Yet equally underwhelmed by what feels like the mundane challenges of day-to-day life.

I cried tears of sheer frustration....

And then cried from the guilt of not feeling grateful enough.

I felt like I was internally screaming all day that I needed space from everyone....

Yet felt so incredibly alone at times.

I felt like ripping the house apart, deluttering every cupboard and scrubbing everything clean to create something like resembles a calm space.....

But equally just couldn't be bothered to even try.

This is what motherhood feels like to me some days.

And I know I'm not the only one who feels this way”

My own words from October 2022, navigating life with a 6 year old, 4 year old and 4 month old who had completely stopped sleeping unless attached to me.

All too often we can see motherhood protrayed in the media as all sunshine and rainbows, making us feel that everyone else has it all together and wondering why we are struggling and find parts of it so damn hard.

The truth - it feels hard Mama, because it is hard. What we are seeing on social media is the filitered version, the snapshot of a single moment in time, a highlight reel.

You are doing nothing wrong. You are an amazing mum. You are allowed to feel all the feels. Believe me when I say…..this too shall pass.

Lean in to the fact that certain things are beyond your control during this season of your life, but equally re-prioritise the things that make you feel like YOU. For me, this meant movement, fresh air and community.

Tomorrow is a new day. A fresh start. Take it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute if you have to mama.

And just remember you are not alone, you matter too and making yourself a priority IS a priority. x